Ayolola recently shared with Chude Jideonwo his journey to fatherhood, revealing that the moment he heard the news, he was depressed and wasn’t ready to be a father. He said: “I was still figuring out my bearings and trying to figure out why I was there. I mean, I knew why I was there, but I was trying to navigate those waters. And now I’m supposed to take care of someone? Can someone’s life be made or broken because of me directly?”
He also revealed that when he learned that he was going to become a father out of wedlock, a great disappointment fell on him, because he felt like he had disappointed his pastor father and everyone.
“I had a child out of wedlock. At what age? As a pastor’s kid, of course, my father wasn’t really happy with me at that time and I was so depressed that I almost ended my life. It was one of the lowest points of my life. I was so blinded by the negative side that I didn’t see the blessings in it,” he said.
Ayolola also described the time when depression overwhelmed him and he found himself in the middle of a busy road, hoping to be hit by a car and die.
“I was like, ‘What if I end this now? You know, no one is going to miss me.’ I was actually in the middle of the road, and when calculating to cross, I deliberately miscalculated to get hit. Maybe that’s a good idea,” he said.
At the last moment, he began to reconsider his decision when the thought of going to hell overwhelmed him and he was miraculously not knocked down.
“But then, I think the fear of knowing that if you do it, you’ll go to hell. I don’t want to go to hell. Maybe it was a bad idea. And then something happened, maybe it sped up or slowed down a little, and the car just brushed past me. I still fell off the road, and people came to help me up, not knowing what I had tried. to do,” Ayolola continued.
The actor revealed that after his attempt, his mentality completely changed and he started seeing the positive sides of fatherhood. He emphasized that this event allowed him to question himself and realize that life still had a lot to offer him.